Thursday

It's Thursday morning, I'm drinking my coffee and totally rocking out to "I'm Coming Out" by Diana Ross. Yesterday I was driving to Nissan of the Eastside to get my car all ready for the big drive and this song came on the radio and I blared the volume....it brought back so many good memories that I had to buy it on iTunes today. I was probably 10 when this song came out but I remember it so well because my mom used to play it over & over again. I particularly remember her playing it on her "boom box" and dancing around, I happened to pass by her room and saw her....she was hysterical. I also remember her listening to it before she would go out with her good friend, Pat. Good times. :)

Things have been crazy the last few days. My emotions have been on a major roller coaster ride, one minute I'm up and the next I want to curl up in the fetal position. I had my last session with my therapist yesterday and she reassured me that all of this is normal....that divorce is like a death and you have to mourn it as you would a death. It helps to know that what I'm feeling is normal but it sure doesn't feel that way when I'm in the middle of one of my full-blown pity parties!

Let's see, what I have I done this week...hmmm. Tuesday I went to see my gal Mary at 88 Kirkland, had my hair trimmed and the color touched up, those darn gray hairs! If anyone is looking for a new hair stylist on the east side, I highly recommend Mary. She's great. After my appt with her I high-tailed it to Totem Lake as I only had 15 minutes to get from the waterfront in Kirkland to Totem Lake and as we all know, traffic out here sucks big time. But I did it with 2 minutes to spare. Proud moment. I don't remember what I did Tuesday night, I know I probably did some sort of packing or whatnot. I did however finish my book, "Hide". Awesome, another recommendation from me.
Yesterday I took my car for service, went to Target to pick up a car charger for my iPod so we can jam all the way across the country. Oh and I had my appointment with my therapist, Renee. Another huge recommendation from me....if anyone is loooking for an awesome, down to earth therapist/counselor....Renee Balodis-Cox is the one for you. I was sad to say goodbye to her! She's in Redmond and if anyone is interested, let me know and I'll be happy to give her info....she can help with absolutely anything and I guarantee, you will love her.

I realized yesterday while talking to her that I am a very loyal person....I kind of knew this about myself prior to that, but it was reinforced. I'm loyal to products, people, friends, etc....it's like Starbucks....everyone who knows me knows how I feel about Starbucks. I don't know if those who know me have ever heard my Fantom vacuum cleaner story....well, I moved back to NY in 95 and was totally addicted to QVC...I mean, I was buying all this random crap that I didn't even know I needed. I knew I had a problem when I bought Easter cookies from QVC, yes from a home shopping channel, that were like $5 each. Yes, I had a problem. Anyways, back to the Fantom. I was totally enticed by their advertisement of this vacuum, I watched how they would use a 'regular' vacuum over a carpet and then take out the Fantom (ooooh, ahhhh) and go over the VERY SAME area on the carpet and WOW!! What it would bring up was just amazing. I had to have one. So I ordered it. After waiting 7 to 10 business days, the Fantom finally arrived and let me tell you it changed my life. I did the demonstration on my own and it so totally worked. After almost 10 happy years with the Fantom, I had to put it to rest. It was a sad moment. Still hurts. But I have moved on to the Dyson, that is my new obsession. Oh, and speaking of appliances....bought a new iron. I am very anal about ironing, I iron everything. I bought a new one, it's called "The Shark". The name says it all.

Maybe it's not so much loyalty as being a major dork! :) ha ha

So, I was supposed to go out to dinner with Trenton tonight. He called yesterday and said that him & Mel (his girlfriend) are going to stay another night in Ocean Shores (who wouldn't?) and would it be okay if we did lunch on Friday? So, that's the plan.

Then a few hours later Jenna sent me a text to see what I was up to and to plan a get together, we're going to get together for pedi's and happy hour this evening at Claim Jumper's. It'll be great to catch up!

I decided yesterday that I am physically, mentally, emotionally and every other kind of "-ly" exhausted that I could possibly be. Divorce is not fun, even under the best circumstances. Nor is moving cross country and leaving most of your stuff behind. I'm totally okay with it though, it's what I wanted....it's just a little overwhelming to think about all the stuff I have to buy. It'll be fun though, my friend Darcy & I are going to go shopping once I get back in town.

Tomorrow night I am hanging out with my wonderful friend Kari, we're going to go to the casino, have a pizza and I'm going to spend the night. I am so looking forward to it!! It's so funny because I've known Kari for as long as I had worked at Medtronic (6+ years) but it hasn't been until the last year or so that we've really gotten close and I'm so happy, I only wish we had gotten closer sooner. It was funny, last summer we met for coffee while I was out on medical leave from my back surgery and we ended up sitting there talking for at least 2 hours.....we talked like we had known each other forever, it was awesome. Kari rocks! :)

Tomorrow morning we're taking my boxes to UPS to get them on their way. I am very afraid to see how much it's going to cost, yikes!! Oh-well, it's less than moving a whole household across country, I have to keep that in mind.

I'm going to finish my coffee and try to get one more box together.

In the words of Diana Ross: "The time has come for me to break out of this shell, I have to shout that I am coming out.....I'm coming out, I want the world to know, I've got to let it show...." :) ha ha....rock on people, rock on!